1 month...

Xmas party. moved. suspended. almost full time. Safety comm 3rd in country. no computer. no phone. no problem. new friends. healthy again. strange days. Long December.

Spiderman 3 (again!)

Spider-Man

And now I lay me down to sleep, I play the lord my soul to keep, And if I die Before I wake I pray the lord my soul to take.
I hope I've done some good.

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Turning the Corner

I am now in my opinion a competitive cash poker player. It seems like my Fish days are over. Something just clicked 'on'. Time to save up and enter a real tourney ...... not wsop just yet but wpt ept or some other that allows me to get better. I am having fun and understanding more and more. Practice for the big one. and maybe in a year $12 million will be mine....

Our Deepest Fear

“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It's not just in some of us; it's in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.”

by Marianne Williamson

Sugar Water

I went to the sugar water festival yesterday and It was nice. Queen Laifah was pretty good, Erika Badu performed well but the big surprise was Jill Scott, she was good even by my standards affible with a voice that was bigger than the Prospect Park bandshell she played at I enjoyed her songs most. Maybe we do it again next year?

Introspection V.1

Every now and then I.... I think.....about myself......and I wonder. Why?
I am not old yet
I am not stupid.
I can virtually do anything.
what is holding me back?
Is it me.
maybe I need a restoration of faith Spielberg style.
I need to get the stuff.
( To all the people I know, this is a process that takes between 1 and 32 hours depending on the malaise, pity, sadness, sloth, etc)
the things that get me off the ground again (basic list)

1. Its a wonderful life (if you know me you wont ask why.)
2. everybody's free (primer)
3. Fight Club (a mans man movie)
4. Sinatra (In the end, It needs to be My Way)
5. American Beauty (inspiration)
6. Counting Crows (yes again!)
7. Warning (song: self-explanatory)
8. Dangerously in love (love boost)
9. Livin' on the edge & Amazing (Aerosmith's 'get a grip' contribution)
10. Appalachian Spring (remind me of the world)
11. Rhapsody in blue (clear my head)
12. Pulp Fiction (time to go)
13. Adagio for strings (bad things sometimes happen)
14. Requiem (either you get busy livin or...)
15. The Shawshank Redemption (Its never to late to start living again)

this will take about 15 hours to complete but it saves me from depression and my faith will be completely restored

Spiderman

Yesterday

Long week but yesterday word came in that the divorce was granted. Legally single, took a couple hard choices but the end does sometimes justify the means. also started clearing my fathers apt(long over due) I was really tired but the aire of accomplishment kept me going and up for about 30 hours. Took the time to call my ex-wife to wish her well in any/all endevours hope it all isn't a wash. Turning page from sad Counting Crows to happy sinatra and darin. Time to go out with the boys sans Jonathan for booze and strippers. more thought later....

Words of Kurt

I love you sons of bitches. You’re all I read any more. You're the only ones who’ll talk all about the really terrific changes going on, the only ones crazy enough to know that life is a space voyage, and not a short one, either, but one that’ll last for billions of years. You’re the only ones with guts enough to really care about the future, who really notice what machines do to us, what wars do to us, what cities do to us, what big, simple ideas do to us, what tremendous misunderstanding, mistakes, accidents, catastrophes do to us. You're the only ones zany enough to agonize over time and distance without limit, over mysteries that will never die, over the fact that we are right now determining whether the space voyage for the next billion years or so is going to be Heaven or Hell.

The War is over!!!

The war is over. everyone is back in the fold. Welcome back to the Safety Committee. May the peace last eternally. Let's see If a cold war begins.

legally single...

I've been thinking now that the paperwork is in two words keep crossing my mind... legally single.. seems stupid since its been almost a year since I've seen the wife. a year of phone tag. I never disliked being single, but if the old papers hold.
Truth is; people do change every seven or so years, people who may have been perfect when you are young have faults when you look back on the things past. nope nobodys perfect. eyes wide shut. thats love-but not committment love feeds itself but committment takes committment duh and time, loyalty, respect and fairness which people may not understand, I didn't, it was a lesson I learned late, too late for sum. All's well that ends.

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Vacation Work

And no time too soon... work is crap and I need time off but. Time to do other work personal; the baby is coming this week , gotta get new glasses goto the dentist, hopefully back to court,find my brother then by the end of the week see X-men 3 with the guys. I'm going to need a vacation from my vacation. or maybe a visit to hooters or hustler ny.

Thinking about Work

It's 'bout 3am and I'm going over the events of the past week. First off, when the union made me the Health and Saftey Co-chairman for the 200 workers' during my shift, I never thought that I'd be sitting in a room pretending to sleep to hear my former friends/committee workers bad mouth me undermine the unions authority and try to create a shadow committee. (good luck trying to get paid for that hour cause I ain't helping ...)Suckers
Friday, My monthly meeting. These two dumb asses sit in like its a prayer vigil (Felix & Mark) My boss Bob didn't want them to disrupt the meeting so 15 union members waited 1 hour for local management and district management to get involved. After a closed door conversation its decided they CAN sit in but.. must be civil....To my amazement they were, when my meeting was finally over these two buffoons went looking for a shill to scream at they picked Victor.
Dumb choice, Vic's been at UPS for the better part of 33 years Knows every body and is a union rep, they threatened him. Tomorrow I gonna see someone lose a job or even better lose a position or best (Mark this ones for you) get someone arrested.

First start

Hello this is My first blog. bear with me. Info will be comming. Thanks